wow, i finally figured it out

No one in life is ever going to be truly happy, you can have moments of happiness, but never perfection. I am not saying life sucks, but merely a fact that everyone will have a problem with something. Like fights, sadness, something happens that you don't want to do. But you can have happiness, but moments like getting married, falling in love, going to amusement parks, and etc.

Also, I finally figured out. I am a character of one's book. As crazy as i might sound it's true. My drama and catastrophe is just the rising action of my life on a writing pyramid chart. And my job is that i have to finish this book with a good finish so that the author(god) can make my book a good seller.
I really don't know what i am saying, but it just came to me that, because of me going though a hard time and this time has been the worst for me that this maybe the rising action, and my climax will conclude where i finish high school and college and get married and have kids. Oh i really hope that what i'm saying is right.

I just really hope things will come out right. and I will fall in love without disappointment.
...i don't want to be a loss-cause anymore.

(I love this song, but it describes what i am going through, which sucks)

Its monday, and it feels like friday.
I hate drama, it can take it and shove it up the butt! :D

So i went to the dentist and i got purple rubber bands and I was the freaking experiment to this new girl that TOOK FOREVER just to get the bottom wire in and i got a thicker wire though, my teeth hurt.

Omg i am with Kerry and it so amazing. We are listening to a whole bunch of Mayday Parade. I feeds the souuullll.
And Kerry keeps telling me that i can't type without misspelling things....like right now.
and that i take forever to write a bulletin(myspace).

Oh and my mom did the funniest thing. My mom was explaining what a (thon-gon) which means noogie. Well actually peanut(?) or like my mom likes to put it Penis. xD it was great, you just had to be there for it.

Well i am trying to find a postcard to turn in to Post Secret. :)

AWE

from kerry when i just got my laptop. :D


michelle, i love you so much it's like crazy! you are amazing and suuuuper cool. :)
i know your going through a really hard time right now, but i also know that you are a strong independent and amazing
girl and that you will get through this no matter how it turns out. everything happens for a reason, and that means
behind all of this insanity there is a reason. God is there for you, as are all of us, and we will never let you down.
you are incredible and silly. :P everytime we hangout it's insane. and we go on adventures to starbucks where cute
dancing guys await, and then walk back only to have the supper duuuper strong wind spit coffee on us. your a lot of fun to chill wiff
and your one of my best friends. i can trust you with anything, things that i would never dream of telling anyone else.
and it's weird cause i have kind of known you for the shortest time. you and i make weird videos and sing weird songs. we have a really
weird taste in music that is almost the same. were sisters. :) no matter what i don't want to loose you, cause were
gonna grow up and live together. ahaha, and get married together... bridesmaids duh! :P your obsession with lavalamps is really funny,
and it's priceless to watch you watch it. :P well, before i go i need to say one more thing... you just lost the game. :)
I LOVE YOU MICHELLE. :D


-kerry callan. :) <3>

Burned

I am reading this book called Burned, and when i was having a really bad day, i read something that really inspired me;

"I believe that there is a God, but He isn't like the God I've been taught to fear. God is love, and he respects love. Whether it's between a parent and child, a man and woman, or friends. I don't think that He cares about religion one little bit. Live your life right. Love with all your heart. Don't hurt others, and help those in need to know. Don't worry about Heaven. If it exists, you'll be welcome." -burned

I thought this was amazing. :)

Awe

Awe, i absolutely love my friends, they hacked my myspace. :D and put this;

KERRY&IRISH HACKED. :D
michelle, i love you.
with a passion, i love you.
and you are my butt buddy.
i love our SBS. :D
and your amazing, incredible, strong, and smart.
<3 i know you'll make it through whatever life throws at you. but know, we'll be there to help, whenever. [:



they are amazing. :D

My photography

After a really long break from photography I have become very passionate
and I decided to actually upload some photos on my flickr, which you should totally go on if you like this picture, or if you don't just check it out. :)

http://flickr.com/photos/miichellexxlee/

here's a few photo's i took;;

I have not been having a good week,
Family has been making me upset and I have yelled at my mother for the first time.
....not good. :(
There are a lot of things that i can't seem to be getting out of my brain.
All of these things just seem to make my brain wrack around my head bouncing off of each corners of my mind.
I have definitely learned a lesson from many things.
1. If your parents are going through separation, and one of them is having a difficult time, don't push it towards them, they are doing the best that they can.
2. be understandable and stay strong, as much as you want to show your weak side to the world, you need to show that your better than that.
3. Even though chocolate makes you happy, you eat too much of it, it'll make you sick.